Thoughts on Self Awareness

Please tell me it is not soon to be Christmas . . .

2007-11-04T20:56:00.000-05:00

And a Happy Hello, and a return to my blog home. Lot's happening. Much material to consider and compose as prose. Reading Joel Osteen of recent, and spending time re-newing old relationships, and creating some new ones.

More to follow.

Jenny

The Practical Course: Essay #1 "The Plane"

2007-03-19T10:35:00.000-04:00

I left on a stand-by flight after the snow in New York afforded me an opportunity to spend the weekend in Toronto. At first the personal interruption in my schedule caused me an inner flutter, but then I proceeded to simply enjoy what at first seemed a frustrating obstacle.

Toronto is a futuristic city. Pristine, along with every conceivable potential to have a good time.

And so the plane. The plane was ready on the runway to take flight. However, a glitch in the system caused us to return to gate. Problem solved and we were on our way. 45 minutes had elapsed however. And as I had another stand-by connection at JFK, I assumed I would have another travel problem, as New York was approaching closer and closer.

When the plane landed, I had 10 minutes, then 6, to disembark, and find my way to my next nearly ready to leave flight. Admittedly, I was aggravated at the time it took to allow us passengers on our way.

Finally, after I stepped down the metal stairs onto the tarmac I flew through hallways, and found the gate where I was stand-by for a flight to Providence.

Oddly, the crew did not recognize my passage, but since it was the last minute, simply chose, apparently, to eliminate any argument and escorted me to the plane.

So there I was about to finally see my Newport home again.

It was a small plane a DHC-8. A plane I would define as a local prop jet. Carries about 40 passengers.

I watched the prop speed up, as it seemed we taxied forever before arriving at our take-off runway at JFK.

Suddenly the stewardess states: "Our flight from Providence was very turbulent, and nearly everyone became sick. If you need a bag ask me. I also just want you to know that it becomes very hot in these planes and you should take off your coats."

The pilot then spoke to confirm what she had stated.

I loosened my coat, and thought, what the heck, I want to go home.

The plane proceeded in sharp elevation, and I rested back in my seat and closed my eyes. I repeated "I am safe, serene, and in peace." I simply said it over and over again. You could have heard a pin drop in that plane, as the passengers were preparing themselves for quite a ride. I simply remained in meditative stance, and repeated my mantra again and again.

I felt angels around me, and I felt they were literally under the wings, guiding the plane quite gently.

I fell deeper into meditation, and thoughts arrived in mind as to energy flowing between all passengers, the stewardess, and pilot, along with encompassing the plane, all unified in Love's Embrace. In my mind's eye I could see the aura of Love's Energy surrounding the plane, and all of us.

Pilot came overhead once to ask us to prepare for a particularly turbulent landing.

The plane landed. One of the most smooth rides I have ever encountered.

Although I have written of the Course, spoken of its varying interpretations, along with speaking my mind in regards to the copyright, and historical facts of this document's finding, the only times that truly matter are the effects I well know upon applying its contents. This is also verified in "The Secret," a movie of great message of particular interest right now. There are no neutral thoughts, and every thought we choose to hold really does matter.

one who walks,

Jenny

To Whom it May Concern

2007-02-11T10:58:00.000-05:00

I do say a resounding Yes.

I am happier than I have ever been in my life. And there are many reasons for this.

I have learned I receive exactly what I ask for. I have learned thought is a powerful tool. I have learned gratitude is the key to harmony. I have learned open mindedness in regards to a myriad of _A Course in Miracles_ interpretations and teachers has led me to a wonderful embrace with people, just as myself, who Desire to know of God in their lives. Diversity is key. Welcoming a gesture of self-forgiveness and love. Kindness to others a decision for joining. Acceptance of my brother keynote in my healing.

I have learned there is every reason in my world to be happy, as the world is a reflection of my thoughts.

There is nothing I cannot accomplish or Do. And the author of _A Course in Miracles_ teaches I am to enJoy what I have been given. Listen, Learn, and Do . . . is its message.

Once I opened my heart and mind to realizing I am a part of Love's celebration, simply, nothing stood in my way.

The naysayers came and gone. And even one "course" student attempted to write the State Board of Nursing to have my license removed due to his own inner hate and unhappiness. I now smile at what is presented to me as someone else's projection of their own suffering, because, I know, my own healing, comparatively, cannot be dampened by anyone elses determination to do so. I now laugh in the face of what I once defined as "injustice."

I have learned the World is For Me, Thought is Good, and Thinking is a part of the teaching of _A Course in Miracles_. I am not a puppet, yet a Child of God. I am a Creation of God's with innate God Given Gift to Be.

I have grown to trust God and mySelf. I have learned living in an intellectual sphere of spirituality never did me any good until I reached to my enemies, embraced those who differed in thought and deed, and realized I could be the Answer to Love's Call.

In return my life has unfolded, and continues to unfold magnificently. And I continue to love and cherish those who approach me with entirely different schemes of thinking in regards to God and spirituality.

This isn't a game. No one needs to win. There is no superior and no inferior. It is all about Thought, and following rightmindedness in thinking, being miracle workers fearlessly.

I grow weary of the judgmental comments in regards to Ken Wapnick, Gary Renard, The Secret, and directed towards those who are joining in hearts and minds to find a better way. I now freely join with those who are extending a hand, as I extend mine. This insane division needs to end. This determination that my brothers who are extending their love should be met with arrows is beyond comprehension.

I know my thinking here is considered blasphemy. But the outcomes in my life speak differently. The littleness within me is fading, and the Greatness of my Divinity is expanding. And this is do to joining, instead of making divisions where truly there are none.

So, yes, I am Happy in ways I never thought possible.

In Love,

Jenny

A Response to Jon Mundy, Robert Perry, and Greg Mackie

2006-10-10T09:23:00.000-04:00

In regards to the ongoing, and never ending, discontent with Ken Wapnick, now focused upon Gary Renard, I determined to make a response. It is easy to hide behind magazine covers. Jon, himself, refused to discuss this with me. Apparently Jon, Perry, and Greg, feel they hold a higher "intellectual" view of truth and wisdom, than someone who simply practices what she finds to be true. Their reason to discount Gary, as they deem to perpetuate their "Teacher of the Course" status, baffles me.

It is never about the "who" or the "message." It is always about finding someone as the next target for personal transgression. It's a means to release rage and anger. It's a telling for all we can do better.

The arguments against Gary will fade, as new fodder appears to tromp through, yet, I have also noticed that fewer and fewer are paying attention, and most are simply smiling, and returning to their study. A raised eyebrow of curiosity is just that. A fleeting look, and then a return to what is truly of value.

It has also been of interest to me to note the difference between those who speak of the Course, and those who practice the Course. And it isn't about interpretation, if there is a world or not, or if Mary was truly visited by an Angel, the burning bush was God, or masters appeared in Gary's life. It is about who and what is actually extending Love into the world, and clearly who is not.

I find the message Gary is presenting, although it seems few understand the underlying mystical consequences, is lightening shoulders, and warming hearts. And those outcomes are noticable in a world desperate to find a pathway out of toil and strife. Perfection of message isn't the point. The goal is allowing minds to expand, and confirm what people are experiencing is valid, regarding their own communications with the divine. Along with asking human beings to take a deeper look at what they for so long have found to be the foundation of their "logical" conclusions.

For me, I'm learning to make better choices. Why join with those who find their motivation and inspiration is only through confrontation? Why affirm to my brother his need to dump his guilt on his brother is worthwhile? Why make "teaching" an adventure in manipulation?

The battlefields will always exist. It is this kind of thinking that makes the war in Iraq. The Course arrived as a means of recognizance of truthful and meaningful existence, and God as Love in the world, NOT to determine through arrogance that egotistical venue should continue to be the mainstay of word and deed.

What is clearly being seen, though, is those who dig deep in egotistical venue are finding themselves in the bottom of a pit. Attempting to crawl out with signs of "liar," while they maintain they know the truth of the Universe, Love and God, is just another slippery ridge that needs to be climbed.

Those who choose to find Gary at fault can do so as temporarily as they please, but nothing is threatened overall, and the message will continue to be heard: Life is about more than the 3D projection, the illusional schemes of scientific evidence, and past philosophical belief systems, that some would have us believe. History is nothing more than an accounting of what men thought they perceived, and what is coming to Light is history needs to be re-written in terms of what is authentic, and what is not.

Using the past to attempt to discredit what as of yet is not clearly understood does nothing more than keep minds imprisoned, due to fearful decision, based upon lack of understanding, and denial of true perception of just what the Universe can, and does, deliver.

one who walks

Jeanette

On Being FOR:

2006-10-04T08:29:00.000-04:00

(from a recent dialogue)

I agree with you as to feeling.

I was talking on the phone last night, at length, to someone in regards to how specific circumstances and people make me feel. That is, in regards to feeling totally encompassed by Love and God. And the who and the what which arrived my way was the surprise. And we were talking about this for considerable time.

And as an aside, Life is a surprise, isn't it? I kept returning to the word coincidence, and he kept correcting me stating "synchronicity."

Feeling seems to be the pathway, in as much in our human endeavor we are often led to believe that intellectual interrogation is the way. I do disagree. It doesn't take intelligence to know the Love of God. And in following a choice to Feel, we intensify the Love within. The Love begins to radiate, generalizing itself to all around us, thus, mountains are moved, and the dead do rise.

As far as your comments in regards to personal expression, and how your thoughts and feelings are received, this is what I have learned: Constantly being in environments whereby argumentative AGAINST is the foundation, instead of having the feeling of being with and FOR, doesn't do me any good. And it doesn't matter how many people join in your decision to be AGAINST, the fact still stands you are simply banging your head against the same proverbial wall. You can't win, because there is nothing in this decision to win, other than some temporary glee on egotistical attempt to take minds hostage, and egotistical determination to see the sparkle in your brother's eyes temporarily go dim.

No wonder there is still war. Humanity still has yet to learn.

You know, it is really easy to live life based upon opposition, and more difficult to demonstrate an existence based upon decisions For. The former is easily demonstrated in jargon and behavior to make the ego feel superior, and the latter is about humility for God.

The intensity of what I have encountered of recent has validated the above for me. I spent waaay too much time attempting to explain me to other people, and waaay too little time demonstrating a FOR pathway of how I have learned to know of God.

Will people still attempt to do me wrong? (smiling) Yes. Will the aggravations of the world continue? Most probably. Will I still feel that I want to engage in the battle of attempting to have others see it my way? Most likely. But, a decision that if people want to squabble, attempting to egotistically self-elevate themselves on the grievous decisions they have made about other people, no longer suits me, as I realize there is nothing I can do about it. People who have chosen a way of life based upon interrogating someone with goal of making the individual feel inferior, miserable, and less than a Child of God, will no longer be recognized in my mind as serving any kind of good purpose.

What I can do is shine my own Light. And that's why I intend to Do. Stronger and Stronger. It feels mighty fine.

So, hugs yes. They are indeed nice. But there is more, much more. And it has to do with allowing the mind to be purified, and nurturing an intensity of Thoughts of God so powerful, that egotistical intellectualism is transformed to Intellectual Community with God, so to speak. And by "Community," I mean joining with those who feel a relationship with God, and who choose a view above the battleground, is the way to take Love's flight.

one who walks

Jeanette

The fine lines between feeling "orphaned," "blissninnyhood," and Strengthening a relationship with God

2006-10-03T19:02:00.000-04:00

Hello all,

This message is inspired through an email conversation I recently had with someone. And I extend my Gratitude to this person.

First, a definition of being "orphaned." Orphan is a term Raj has been using frequently---as I do enjoy many of his commentaries---as feeling separated from God. This feeling of separation is the reason for egotistical perceptions not aligned with His Thoughts, and the outcome of projection in the world that is in opposition to the Joy and Happiness that is our birthright as Children of God. IOW, finding we are an "orphan," leads us to reacting to the world egotistically, instead of in responding in accordance with His Will.

Blissninnyhood is a term utilized to mean an individual who speaks generously of God, yet, is often misunderstood by those who perhaps feel a pathway towards spiritual development should include hardship and suffering.

On Strengthening a relationship with God we choose to find God exists, He has the ability to affect our hearts and minds, and His Communication is available for our choosing to Listen.

How to function in the world on making a decision for a spiritual life is the question.

Without question an outcome of spiritual progress is more happiness, more forgiveness, and less difficulty in life. We do reach a point where we gleefully define ourselves as "blissninny," yet not meaning a superficial response to the world, yet a sincere one. However, the observation of others in regards to our "blissninnyhood," is that we are too simplistic, and do not see the world for the problems, and trials and tribulations, it holds.

Jesus teaches not to deny the world. He also teaches to re-kindle our relationship to God. He also teaches that the happy dream is part of the journey with the Course.

So, what to do in response to those who find our happiness and success is a measure of not an authentic lifestyle, yet a pretense for simply being a "blissninny?"

My advice, ignore it.

Any spiritual path is between ourselves and God. Our radiance shines through our authenticity. Allowing our inner flame to grow is the nature and means of our progress.

People will find fault no matter what you do. So best to simply follow your inner Voice, your Guide(s), and make decisions according to your own observation and contemplation as to what you will Do.

Ending feelings of being "orphaned" from divinity, while we choose God again and again in our lives, and concurrently try to explain the fine lines of why we feel as we do, is an unnecessary and burdensome task. Demonstrations FOR always are more fruitful than arguments AGAINST regardless of topic or experience. As example, I cannot explain to you why I do not involve myself with politics, but I can demonstrate to you the love I have for being an advocate for patients in the Emergency Room.

I have always found trying to live up to someone else's standard is fruitless. While we entertain the concept of being understood, explain and explain again and again, and still feel we are not being heard, we have wasted time and effort that could have been directed in developing our gifts and talents, and affirming our relationship with God. Not to mention being the recipient of warm hugs from those who choose to accept us as we are. :-)

one who walks

Jeanette

Smile . . . Seriously

2006-09-23T17:07:00.000-04:00

I've learned through my extensive work as a ER nurse what is quite healing for people, along with careful attendance to regimes of treatment, are simple acts of kindness. A smile literally lifts not only the spirit of the one who delivers this happy thought to the world, yet, it also directly affects the individual for whom eyes meet, and a smile is delivered. And it immediately translates into every language.

Think about it. If we took the task upon ourselves each day to deliver a smile to others, sincerely, with an intent of Gratitude, wholeheartedly, in desire to know God through this simple act of Joyful unity, what miracles might arise?

Re-defining our relationship with the world, as being an individual baptized in mind and heart in relationship for God---the Course would call the role a miracle worker--- as a conduit for connectivity between God, our brother, and ourselves, seems a worthy trinity.

How many people do you know who spend their days in misery? Or recounting the past in relation to trials and tribulations? Or even ask us to join in some long story of yesterday of how their life was troubled, their body ill, or all the difficulties they encountered, making you feel they want you to join them in their pathway of suffering?

What a smile can do, delivered in the Joy of decision to know God in the world, is generalize itself in magnificence, and be catalytic for healing for everyone.

If we are choosing Excellence for ourselves, the way this is given as a Gift to our brothers, is finding a modality that truly works for being a catalyst to offer miracles in the world.

What does a smile do?

It transcends distance for one. You smile at a stranger on the street, you immediately feel closer, and more as One.

It speaks of a willingness for friendship, and Love in the world. It offers a gateway for further communication.

It makes you personally happy, having made a decision to join with what is your innate birthright as a Happy Child of God.

Yet, it goes further. And the reason is because offering a smile, a heartfelt, "I know you exist," kind of communication can linger in the heart and mind of the brother you gave this gift, and actually have an effect on the thoughts your brother carries in his heart and mind right Now.

I make it a habit, as I walk through hospital hallways, seeing families, and patients, in the ER, to offer them a smile, a face of Gratitude, a communication of Love, a demonstration of willingness to validate their existence in the world.

A smile is magical, transformational, and is the beginning of rising both our thoughts and our brothers beyond our limiting judgments and grievances. It is an act of kindness, yet has the ability for forgiving all we held in mind with a re-newed determination for Love, gentleness, and compassion.

But mostly, it recognizes our brother as ourself, except in time. We have been where our brother has walked, we have endured his suffering, we have known of the heartache, we have often chosen loneliness. The feeling of being orphaned can be gone!

We can change all that for ourselves and our brother in a single act: A smile. The smile refuses to re-live the past, it, if only for a Moment, brings us both in the Now, and it offers a gateway towards forgiveness of all thinking, allowing Thoughts of God and Love to dominate the mind.

This choice for a single, deliberate, demonstration of Faith can be contagious. We can pass it on, and teach others to do the same, by being a witness for happiness in the world.

So, don't ask me to join you in your deliberations over past woes, or determinations that trials and tribulations are the way to grow. The Now is a powerful Moment, and a well delivered smile, generalizes Love in the world, with potential of personal and individual transformation, beyond our seeming simple decision to give our brother a broad smile.

An Act of Love. A choice to extend kindness. And a refusal to hear the yesterdays of someone who needs to be gently lifted to the Idea there is a way, and that is, through decision to join in the Now in this simple act of forgiveness.

One who walks,

Jeanette

The Final Judgment

2006-09-04T16:02:00.000-04:00

Without question life is a process of continuation. Death is merely a change of costume, of form, and the learning continues. At specific hallmarks in our life we are asked to look upon our past thoughts and actions in regards to how we find ourselves in the Now. Our hearts review our choices, and our minds deliberate on just how we have spent our time.

Spiritual information teaches The Final Judgment isn't a time whereby God decends upon us with his punishment for our wrong doings, yet a time when we have an opportunity to elevate our minds to higher orders of thinking.

And what are higher orders of thinking? These are thoughts joined with God in circumstance yielding Understanding, as a result of our contemplation.

Not one moment of our lives is ignored in life review. Although metaphysical teaching suggests our past is something we needn't relive in accords with our reactions, emotions, and/or pain, it is a gateway to exploring our Now. We can, indeed, with the divine's help, re-live our experience absent need to re-enter into the emotional states we felt imprisoned us before.

During specific intervals in our lives, when we choose immense change, or accept a higher Calling to go further and completely change our experience, we are given an opportunity to commune with the divine so that our past becomes healed in the Now, absent its denial.

The importance of this is spiritual progression. It is a going forth by using what we have learned in order to do better. And clearly it is a part of our wakening.

In our daily lives this is relevant because as we allow an end to denial, we can become more inwardly honest, more introspective, and seek to become a more whole human being. We can choose to join with God in His Will for us. And The Final Judgment can be a continuing experience of inner healing, resulting in an Understanding there is no death, no separation from God, no time, and simply a forward journey of acceptance, re-indentifying with who we are, and asking for help whenever we momentarily lose perspective of it all.

Life is precious. It isn't a time for egotistical ploy, games, or attempting to utilize what God has given in destructive or dishonest venue. It is a time to enjoy, embracing all that is God, and learning. On making the right judgments with the Holy Spirit, we then enter as _A Course in Miracles_ suggests a portal, the Holy Instant, where our experience is exchanged for the revelatory gifts of knowledge, Understanding, and a deepening knowing of what life is all about.

With practice, our world and our prior focuses begin to vanish, and as Raj teaches, the Real World begins to expand in its place. Thus The Final Judgment leads us from ilusional thinking to what is truly of value, and the divine waits at the gate to help us take the final entry into Heaven.

One who walks,

Jeanette

My purpose is my relationship with God

2006-09-01T07:34:00.000-04:00

I've learned that if I am asked to do more than what I feel to be my share to simply do it.

If there is stress around me to ask God to invoke a peace within me.

When circumstances seemingly appear overwhelming to ask Jesus to clear the way for me.

And all the time, keeping my eyes focused on God, my true Source for Energy, authentic Communication, and Motivation, to follow in whatever direction He is sending me.

I gave up on systems long ago. They do not work. I Now find simply realizing my existence is not about systems, but who I meet along the way. My interaction with whomever is sent to me in my day should be the focus of my attention.

In other words, it doesn't matter where I am, or what I am doing. I cannot make sense of a hectic world, or illusional frames of time and space, nor am I asked to. What I can Do is simply be a conduit for God in whatever circumstance arrives my way. Any experience can be literally transformed through my decision. The busy becomes quiet. The entanglements are set free. The crazyness becomes sane.

It is all determined by my decision to keep my thoughts aligned with His, or give into illusional experience. Sometimes I am asked to walk where angels fear to tread, other times present me with venues to test my faith, and further still, I find myself in the middle of chaos, realizing the only answer resides in a choice to see my role in chaos completely different than I chose before.

There are no accidents, only synchronicities. So it doesn't matter if I am walking along the docks here, or working in the ER, or at a gas station, or having dinner with a friend. It simply is where I am supposed To Be, maximizing my understanding of forgiveness, as I realize my Strength resides in God.

My relationship with God has become my sole purpose, and through this, I am seeing and functioning in the world wholly differently.

Jeanette

one who walks

The Laundromat

2006-08-08T14:19:00.000-04:00

Having moved to Newport in order to engage the water, breezes, and ocean sounds in inspirational melody, as I design to write, along with celebrating in the Joy of God, I happened to venture into an ordinary event.

My apartment is not ready, yet, and, so, I have been visiting the local laundromat. I've been there nearly everyday, which is rather another story.

I walked in the place, the washers and dryers much different than when I was a child, yet, the faces all seemed familiar to me in a divine innocent sort of way.

My mother used the laundromat when I was a child. I loved watching the washers, and dryers, playing outside, and listening to my mom talk to the people. The clinking of quarters, the placing of baskets, the folding of laundry upon the tables. I remember it all.

The second day a woman began to talk to me, stating she was a former manager of the place, and suggesting which dryers to use in order to obtain the fastest drying time for the least amount of money. On our conversation more people began chatting, and extended a recall of sweet fragrance towards each other, which even surpassed the aroma of fresh linens in the place. Instant closeness. One speaking of family, another work, and another from the local naval station.

The next day I happenstanced upon one of the current employees. Same experience. Others joined in, and it seemed as if a close knit family, all knowing each other's thoughts and feelings, and expressing our commonalities together. And in this case, our conversation shifted to God, family troubles, and how prayer and Good Will seemed to help in any circumstance.

With each visit I find gentle, respectful folk. No one challenging another in any sort of way, simply folding their cotton, or adding their detergent, and talking about their lives and day.

It feels like Home. All joined in purpose to some task, and yet a calling to come together in conversation, which nearly at every turn of the dryers came home to God.

And ordinary event, perhaps. Doing the laundry.

Yet, the learning immense.

One woman who gets up at 0500 each morning to do others' laundry for a living, then to care for her grandchildren all day, and then to tend to her own needs each evening. And thrilled she has off from 12 to 5 that day.

Another who has sacrificed much, but feels her relationship with God takes care of all her personal needs, and so she can give so much time and effort away.

What these individuals do in 24 hours would cause some minds to spin, as to where they obtain their energy, their stamina in going from one cycle to another in their daily lives, and continuing each day in the same way.

The Course speaks of purification of mind. Yet, here, absent any Course material, these individuals brought together in cleansing of an entirely different sort, catalyzed by an ongoing memory of what togetherness is all about. Kindness, generosity, going beyond your own limitations, and trusting God, will give you all you need in whatever circumstance might arise in your day.

It's not just a laundromat. It's God's House of worship in a very attended way.

One who walks,

Jeanette

Life Transitions

2006-05-29T10:54:00.000-04:00

The only certainty in life is change.

If I look back, upon my past, through the eyes of a forgiving God, and with the wisdom and instruction of Jesus, I can note, clearly, how change has entered my life, and how it has been greeted.

There are times when I met change head on, egostically in format, instead of taking an opportunity to allow the future to reveal itself. Allowing tomorrow to become transparent thus motivates me to a high degree.

All spiritual instruction states all time occurs in the Now, and so, there is no reason I cannot view the entirety of my life from an intellectual portrayal of one mind thinking, and also in regards to following the Call of God. Jesus also offers a mystical revelation of seeing each moment of a life in time, and correcting distortions, in vivid portrayal.

Few people I have met in my life really have courage. Some do. Those who do present me with testimony of how the past is used to heal erroneous thinking, and then to truly move on, are God's Teachers. They show how yesterday's news can be brought to mind in a way which reveals a portal to a higher order of thinking. Nothing sacrificed, or regretted, but surely thought and experience translated.

I've learned in my life to be adventurous. Living through past relationships, in dwellings I've been in forever, or walking the same streets as yesterday, only serve to imprision the heart and mind in past belief, and fear. I tend to take chances. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Inspired thought unheeded is no different than taking the Light of God and attempting to turn it off. It can be denied, ignored, or considered imagination or fantasy, but life continues a process of rocky experience until the Holy Spirit's Vision is accepted.

Sometimes, I've learned, goodbyes to people and circumstance are in good order, and so is concurrently hellos to new acquaintances. And there are times when past relationships must be re-newed, through a decision of forgiveness by both, then hand and hand looking forwards to what was known of value together all along: We are found, lost, and found again.

My life is soaring in many ways these days. I am appreciative of the ability to not only change my mind, but changing the entirety of my life based solely upon relationship to God. Nothing else matters than the Presence of God. And God is known in so many ways, from flowers to a simple conversation, to an obvious encounter with an angel, to teleportation to past and present places. The world is unlimited, Created by God, to be known without restriction.

Freedom becomes an acceptance that it is time to realize what has failed, accept a life transition, and bask in what comes next.

The most inspirational book on this experience I have ever read is: Callings: Finding and Following an Authentic Life, by Gregg Levoy

http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbnInquiry.asp?z=y&isbn=0609803700&itm=1

Spiritual search is helpful, but life change and transcendence is much more. It is about taking what you have learned and actually allowing an authentic outcome to manifest itself. But first fear must be overcome, and a realization following God's Thoughts in Mind is the only worthwhile path afterall.

A practical spiritual life becomes not one of specific song and verse, but one of realizing the dynamic towards being the recipient of all the answers for an individual life, and further, to know the world through Love's Eyes, is a choice, a constant calling, and one never taken alone. It's a Life Transition from living in blindness to living in constant Awareness, with and for God.

One who walks,

Jeanette

The Course as secular metaphysics!

2006-05-21T08:59:00.000-04:00

What A Course in Miracles actually is is a *secular* way towards metaphysical Understanding beyond what our senses would tell us.

Religiosity and Christianity only deem to define the Course in terms of their own systems of belief, instead of taking what Jesus offers as a way to go beyond the coffers.

I know so many who attempt to make the Course fit into the Bible, but only become lack luster in description, and paralyzed in their experience of what the Course truly teaches.

Testimony is given by awakening minds to what is potentially available if we have the courage to leave past definitions in the past, open our minds, and allow our hearts to feel the way towards a wholly new different way of Understanding the world through the Holy Spirit's Vision.

And so many have literally *feared* leaving the constructs of Christianity in order to open doors in their mind, forgetting that what is Real and Truthful need never be sacrificed in spiritual exploration.

The encounter becomes a Graduation from old approaches of religion and dogma, and towards new ways of finding the pathway towards answering the questions of "What Am I?" and "What is Love?" . . . Just as Jesus in _A Course in Miracles_ offers.

The World is Real. Heaven is Here Now. Creation is Eternal. And it can be our choice to begin to journey where we have feared to tread, and realize the message given to us.

This isn't to discount the "religious" way, or state the Bible serves no purpose. It is to say, we must lay aside our archetypes of what the Bible has told us, and move on in exploration of what the Wisdom of all ages is telling us.

Those of us who have consciously decided, based upon inspired metaphysical experience, to be a living testimony of what we have learned need to realize the historical record of religious yesterday must be renewed, just as Jesus has done within the pages of _A Course in Miracles_.

The unveiling has already begun. The reception tantamount to change in religious structure and heirarchy.

As our own hearts and minds continue to open to the mystical experience of God and the Son, so will yesterday's dogma and verse be replaced with what may seemingly appear as secular, but what will clearly lead to what was, and always will be, the Truth.

One who walks,

Jeanette

A Holy different perspective on Special Relationships

2006-03-10T08:45:00.000-05:00

As many students of A Course in Miracles will tell you a major obstacle on planet Earth is human beings who find certain relationships more "special" than others. One isn't to love one's own mother more than another, because doing so doesn't present an equality of love in the Universe, and having a romantic relationship, or dedicated relationship of intimacy isn't appropriate either, because doing so is an abomination to the body, as surely the body is to be denied.

This clearly is not the teaching of Jesus. The Course is either completely wrong in this declaration, or the interpretation of what the Course says has been used to make distance in relationships, so people who have had difficulty in relationship have an excuse not to engage any other.

The concept loving everyone the same and equally has replaced the Idea our hearts and minds are innately directed to those who enter our lives for good purpose and reason. Fear needn't be generated, resulting in erroneous definitions, because understanding has yet to arrive.

First, one must look at relationships metaphysically. We do travel lifetime to lifetime in groups, in families, of sorts, in order to enhance our learning experience on Earth. There is testimony after testimony in these regards in terms of Near Death Experiences, and also a higher perspective as to the hows and whys this occurs is contained within Michael Newton's works concerning _Life between Lives_.

Second, one needs to be an observer of his or her own relationships. There is nothing wrong with marriage, as example, as a chosen special relationship is made, or loving your own children, demonstrating this through the feeding, housing, caring for, and bonding, with one's own offspring, and yet, not having the same emotional and physical closeness with all people on Earth, or taking exactly the same care of every child on the planet. In other words, whatever degree of relationship one might have with another is certainly valid and honorable, yet denying relationships based upon a spiritual concept that one relationship is not more important than another presents a life design impossible, and also based on fear.

Third, it must be noted the primary reason for special relationships is learning, therefore, the value of intimate relationship, close friendship, family bonds, and levels of acquaintance-ship, only hold potential based upon by our own decision to explore possibilities, or make boundaries, as one looks for the exit sign due to fear. Varying degrees of love directed in a pyramid of relationships, some more close, others more distant, yet, each serving a purpose nonetheless.

All our relationships should be honored, equally; however, we also should regard our closest relationships as special, more valuable, more trustworthy, and where we learn more about ourselves. We become better beings through honest engagement, and in doing so, also generalizes our learning to the world. Hence we become more loving people, self-honesty leading the way.

Special relationships are good, holy, worthy, along with joyful, pleasurable, with the potential to increase our happiness, and enhance learning about who we are. And special relationships aren't limited to people. We might have a special, loving, communicative relationship with Nature, our Higher Selves, or God. Anything can be utilized for expression of emotion and feeling, which then leads to understanding the true character of our own Eternal Soul and Personality.

Raj, of The Northwest Foundation for A Course in Miracles, states that finding an object of your affection, and that might be a tree, a park, a friend, a painting, an intimate relationship, something you value in mind and heart, can actually uplift you from limited belief systems, widen your perspective, and teach you how heart over mind actually is a valid way towards personal introspection, resulting in an integration, which leads you to higher awareness and higher orders of thinking.

I feel this whole shenanigans that special relationships are wrong is perpetuated by people who fail in relationships, and so want the world to believe that anything special in their lives is wrong. Distance becomes the goal, a distorted defintion of special relationships the excuse. Closeness isn't always easy, but it is always better.

Relationships are difficult, at best :-), but what the true teaching of the Course is, karmic metaphysics demonstrates, and what truly works in life, is to have special relationships, yet simply learn to do better on encountering relationship in our lives, go deeper, and soar in feeling, which leads to soulful passion in all we do, thus, bringing ourselves to God. Allowing feelings also contributes towards ending denial. We learn to replace what we fear, with what we truly feel, and we walk through what has keep our heart from taking another chance with relationships and God.

For me, I hold special relationships high in my life and they have served me well. I have noted this above, on my blog, concerning my children, and also extend this to my family, friends, and co-workers, as well.

It isn't special relationships that are wrong, or in error, it is the way we behave in relationships which is wrong, or in error. And the result of recognizing this fact is we then have the opportunity for apologies, amends, and becoming even closer, through an understanding we needn't shun what is of value, due to past hurt or regret, but simply be willing to learn how accepting love in our lives, and improving our response to the world, is of benefit to everyone. And we can Thank God for those in relationship, who stay with us day and night, in order to love us, cherish us, as special in their lives, so that we can learn more about our purpose, function, and continue to explore our evolutionary spiritual transcendence.

Jeanette

one who walks

How can we define God?

2006-03-06T16:28:00.000-05:00

God doesn't ask us to use our imagination, or to rely on faith in order to know Him.

God appears before us everyday, if we desire a relationship with Him.

Every act of kindness, every loving thought, every change of season, every bird in flight, is God manifested.

God Creates. His Creation embarks on a journey as a Gift. By giving us this great Gift, His Creative Effect is known in the world. The Creative Effect of God's Love is translated into form. Form we can see, touch, feel, know, and enjoy, as the Presence of God.

The choice, through man's own free will, remains. We can choose to see the world as a product of our own minds, thinking somehow man has made a place of hardship and problems, or know the world God has Created in order to increase our happiness.

As the alphabet is available to me to form words, phrases, and sentences of personal expression, so is the world utilized by God to express Himself through Nature, our innate Gifts and Talents, and the humanity we extend to one another. Most certainly co-Creation arrives at a destination as evidence of choosing to reflect His Will, ultimately, His Love.

And quite lightheartedly, Jesus is sent as God's Greeting Card, of the Holy Spirit, in order to assure us all our thoughts, feelings, and experiences can be sent to him, and he will be available to exchange our confusions, doubts, and hopes, into God's Greeting of Love.

The world can been seen as a wonderful place, full of opportunity, of knowing God in His Residence, or a place of egotistical servitude, where toil and tribulation, challenges and struggles, are the means to our salvation.

God is the ultimate, and also the potential. God is the Creator, and as a Father for His children, extends His Creations to us, waiting our willingness, acceptance, and our decision for celebration.

Jeanette

one who walks

Forgotten by God

2006-01-30T14:29:00.000-05:00

This is a thought which crosses the mind of many when they feel they have been abandoned by the Divine.

It isn't a simple thought of pity, or self disregard, it is a thought, which demonstrates a willingness to know God.

The more we question where God is in the opportunities of our daily existence, the more we are aware of the choice to know of Him throughout our experience.

I know a man who shook his fist at God, swore at God, and stood outside looking at the Heavens, and then never felt so close to God.

We are spiritual beings having a human experience, and every once in a while need to vividly recall, through very strong emotion at times, what this connection can bring us.

In allowing our illusions to take over reality, we often are too fearful to confront the truth, or seek forgiveness, and so spend lifetimes challenging ourself to suffering for God. "Suffering for God" is the key phrase here. We determine through pain, and turmoil, the lessons will be learned, and the pathway towards enlightenment will be cleared ever further.

Not so.

What the truth of a lifetime of experience is is the constant reminder to ourselves that God is available within, and in our world. And sometimes that takes a fist to the Heavens, or angry retort, or demands that the divine reveal itself. These communications aren't about asking God to do anything, they are expressions of our own deep seated commitment.

A strong reckoning with God is only about our own resolution, our own decision, our willingness to feel the Power and Embrace of an Authority grandeur than ourselves.

So, Forgotten by God?

These are the times, the thoughts, the feelings of being abandoned, which are our opportunity to confront straightforwardly in what direction we choose to take our hearts, minds, and ultimately, our lives.

Jeanette

one who walks

Twelve steps to a practical union with Life

2005-12-13T08:03:00.001-05:00

1. Know there is a God.

This decision impacted my life tremendously. There is a Creator. I was Created. There is a Creative Force, a Divine Reason, an Encounter of Love, occurring in the Universe. Logically, I was Created for Purpose, and to Know of my Creator.

2. Be Kind.

Every act of kindness I offer is an acknowledgement I choose to know of God's Love in the World. As I participate in a choice to be a decent human being, so is my life transformed.

3. Become a good observer.

Intentfully view your co-workers, your family members, your friends and loved ones. Who is beaming with happiness in their lives, and why? Who is focused on misery and strife? What is the outcome of these decisions?

Make role models of those who have already forged a path, and are demonstrating in the world how life can be meaningful.

4. Make spirituality an adjunct in your life, not the whole of your life.

I no longer find living a "spiritual" life or having "spiritual friends," to be keynote in my life. I once did. What I learned is this is a very ineffectual way of living. My life now centers around my career, my gifts and talents, my family, friends, and loved ones.

I no longer choose to fit the mold of any spiritual document, or any other individual's interpretation of what I encounter.

I am now free. I realize I have a mind to think, a heart to love, and feet to walk. I enjoy my life maximally.

Spirituality is an adjunct to my life. It offers me confirmation of what I have learned. It offers me remembrance of what I know; however, it does not direct what I do or say. My own logical and intuitive guidance is the foundation of my life.

Spirituality no longer replaces my direct relationship with God. I can read, study, or share with others. Yet, my relationship with God is paramount.

5. Pay attention to what gives meaning to your world.

I have gifts and talents, just as everyone does. I focus on what I have been given. In this way the rest of my life falls into place. As I focus on my own object of affection, my own inner passion, my own inner spark, so does my life and world make good sense.

6. Pay it Forward.

I gave directions to a woman in a center city train station last night. We spoke on the train for a while. I enjoyed her company.

I arrived at my station after dark, in very cold weather, with lots of deep snow everywhere. A man asked me for change to make a call. I let him use my cell phone in order to call for a ride. Then I decided to just take him to his home. We talked about God, his job search, and more. He gave me his email address, as he is a computer professional, and stated if I ever needed help to contact him.

He left a note in my glove compartment box, fixed to his email address. It said: Pay it Forward

7. Use common sense.

The errors of judgment I have made in my life were due to a momentary lapse in thinking through choices I made. Most life decisions can be successfully completed by simply thinking forwards as to the possibilities of any action or plan. I've learned a whole lot of time and expense can be saved this way.

Common sense and good reason are forefront in my life. I am a dynamic being. I Create my own life, and hold the power of choice.

I also allow time for relaxation, and rest. A hurried life isn't worth the effort it takes to keep myself spinning. Time is a gift I have been given, and if it isn't achieved this lifetime, there is the next.

I have also learned being motivated, with consistent, steady, approach, tends to be the way of accomplishment. In this way, even work is enjoyed beyond its initial goal.

8. A job is a worthwhile commitment.

Everyone I know who works full time seems to benefit from their decision. And I find stay at home Moms to be a full time job, btw. Even part time work is beneficial. Work tends to keep one's life in good order and perspective. I feel working at another location serves human potential more than working in one's home. The former requires more self-discipline in regards to working with other people, whereas the latter is about control. That said: I do understand concerns of childcare. I also well know of making excuses in life, too.

Overall, engaging my life in a specific direction with other people, in joined interest, contributes to my feeling of well-being.

9. Be selfish.

Every healthy choice I make in my life contributes to *everyone* around me. There is not a single rational, healthy, determination I make in my life, which doesn't benefit someone else. Being selfish, therefore, seems to actually be beneficial beyond my personal intentions.

10. Take personal responsibility.

I have become completely responsibile for my own life. This decision caused me to turn to wisdom, compassion, sympathy, and enhanced my relationships with family members, friends, and co-workers.

11. The past is a powerful tool.

I find the past isn't to be ignored, denied, or shut away. Past experience brought to the present, in mind and heart, can be used to end denial, addictive behaviors, co-dependent attitudes, and also to bring to life means and ways which really worked towards personal happiness, but were hampered somehow along the way.

I've returned to the past to reconcile what I have said and done, to rekindle family relationships, to remember past goals, to reflect on past feelings, and in summary, to become a more integrated human being.

I cannot possibly embrace today, unless I heal the past in my mind, which allows new ways of living, and assists in formulating answers to my questions today.

12. Live with what you have.

I know people who sit around waiting for Jesus Christ to write messages on their walls, when their walls are already full of messages. I know people who wait for direction from the Holy Spirit, when reams of directives have already been given. I know people who look to miracles for solutions to their problems, when miracles have appeared in multitude. I know people who seek that right relationship, when relationship with God is the answer to their prayers. I know people who want to be wealthy, but who live impoverished lifestyles. I know people who are dissatisfied with their lives, but find dissatisfaction more comfortable than change. And I know people who know exactly what they need to do, yet allow fear to keep them living self-imposed restrictive lives, which become more frustrating every day.

I arise every morning with exactly what I have. I use it to the best of my ability. I realize all I need is before me every day, and I am grateful and thrilled for another sunrise.

Jeanette

one who walks

blizzards, friendship and family, and Love, oh my!

2005-12-12T08:32:00.000-05:00

Hello all,

Right now I am posting from my son's apartment in Newport, a mere block from the baptizmal waters of Peace and Surrender.

Wonderful time here, as I continue my extended winter vacation.

I'll be back on site :-) soon, and write more on this forum, along with my new sister webplace, which offers metaphysical viewpoints from inspired writers.

Thank You for now over 900+ views of this website. I am deeply Grateful.

The sister website surely proves to be exceptional, and I invite you to offer *your* thoughts for posting to a wider audience:

http://acollaborationofwisdom.blogspot.com/
It's focus being *original thought.*

Much ever present Love, good times, and fun, as I continue my journey as A Teacher of God.

Jeanette

one who walks

jeanettejoy@earthlink.net

Beyond Gratitude

2005-11-08T10:41:00.000-05:00

There is a prevailing and popular spiritual practice amongst students of metaphysics to practice gratitude each day. What is of goodness and grace is to be the focus, resulting in a karmic response of more harmony arriving the student's way.

This is a good practice, but is self-limiting, in that the goal is set, the method confirmed, and a decision in mind is already made as to the expected outcome. Nothing wrong with affirmation; however, there is another step which can bring more freedom to a mind whose focus is on what is of value in the world.

I suggest the step is this:

Seeing oneself as a child of God, as a part of His Creation, as an Idea in His Mind so Created and Manifested, and so Loved, He has given the child freedom of co-Creation.

This goes beyond Gratitude and affirmation, and actually extends thinking to seeing oneself through the eyes of God, resulting in feeling the Love of a Creator so profound there is nothing He would not give to His Child.

This is a powerful Thought, and not isolated by mere constructs of making a life better, yet, actually deeming to join God in Mind, and know of one's existence in light of His Creative Effect in the world.

Thinking is then extended from all the thoughts collected by past modalities, beliefs, and cultural norms, and stored in separation. This decision and encounter then juxtapositions the focus of the child to a wealth of Thought held by The Creator, who patiently waits for acceptance.

The Universe is an open book, so to speak. The Book of Life is available to all those who seek. And The Mind of God is available for anyone who deems to go beyond what goodness life holds, to an Understanding of seeing oneself throught the very eyes of the Creator Himself.

This is completely possible due to the fact God is so joined with His Creations they cannot be separated at all. It's simply a matter of choice and decision, and what kind of choice one makes in regards to being in this world, yet not of it at all.

The first step in this process is a desire to see the world as God's Creation, and most certainly holding gratitude for all that one has been blessed, yet, then making a choice to know of oneself through the Creator, using the shift-of-perception in Mindful Thinking available to those who are prepared.

The preparedness begins with a single decision for forgiveness, that is, a decision the world isn't what one thought at all, and a willingness to truly know what Love's presentation as Life is all about.

As one becomes more determined in rising above even what is of value, egotistical thoughts are exchanged for Mindful Thinking, and God's World is seen in the brilliance of His Love. Then as the closeness continues, one suddenly sees himself in Light of God's Vision, as neither apart from, nor God Himself, yet within a dynamic of closeness portraying each being is eternally part of something grandeur than the separated concept of self.

It's remarkable the freedom we have. We can imprison ourselves in the world, or become completely aware of our relationship to God, and function from a place whereby the outcome is absolute Grace, affording us the potential to actually do Acts beyond the limited definitions we have given ourselves.

So, offering gratitude to our world is but a step in right-minded direction towards knowing oneself through the eyes of God HimSelf. And the outcome of this is a dynamic of living unparalleled, whereby good sense and good reason is even replaced with knowledge itself.

Thinking that life is about a body, walking upon a planet, awareness is about simply knowing more about this place and its inhabitants, and metaphysics has to do with apologetic Christianity, keeps the mind imprisoned.

But first the Thought must be entertained, and held in mind for a while, that there actually is more to existence than mere acceptance we are simply learning and dying. This kind of thinking no longer serves us well. The spiritual evolution on the planet is calling for something more. The actual life portals higher thinking brings is a topic in and of itself. But first a decision needs to be made to know one's Creator, instead of cherishing the Creations through gratitude, thinking somehow doing so will bring about the Atonement so many are searching for.

Jeanette

one who walks

On Intelligence

2005-10-23T09:31:00.000-04:00

True intelligence is something which cannot be derived from books or study, yet is available to those who have achieved the awarenes of a pathway between their own thoughts, and higher orders of thinking, only to be found in the Mind of God.

Any theorist of the genius mind will tell you they all have one thing in common: A willingness to put forth effort, and a faith in something greater than themselves. Once this is established, with some willingness, a pathway is made literally through and beyond what was once held in mind, and meaningless thoughts are effortlessly forgiven away.

Personally, for me, I began my task this lifetime in pursuit of intellectual information of a sort of metaphysics and mystical, yet, found this modality has limitations defined clearly by the authors themselves--->the end result of their thinking.

Yet, forging a way, as Jesus instructs, to herald the Thoughts of God in Mind, has little to do with religiosity, or even spiritual charisma, but simply a Way to re-interpret, then re-remember, and re-communicate, with the Source that was there all along.

As for A Course in Miracles, a book designed clearly for self study, the material can juxtaposition a mind in a wholly different direction. The shift of perception isn't to do about seeing the illusion in another erroneous way, yet maintaining an agreement of commune with God, which then translates the illusion into Reality, thus allowing the Greatest of Thoughts to be sifted in Grace to one's mind. Integration, as the Course defines, then is so maximized. The boundaries of the mind now eliminated.

What to be done with these Thoughts is a mystery at times, yet those who have learned to channel the Energy of Love as they have been so embraced by a message, then attempt to deliver what they have learned to the world.

It's all part of the nature of spiritual evolution. First the seeking and study, or perhaps God given Grace in its place, then the realization the Book of Life, and pathways of true learning, are available in a single Instant of willingness, revealing Universal "secrets" long felt elusive, or perhaps even prior believed unreachable.

Then the acquired awareness brought forth to humanity---living in this world, yet not of it---the masters of Doing, through Love, hold the Thoughts of God in Mind, and fearlessly attend the business of doing God's Will.

It all is viewed by the ego as rather complex; however, its simplicity remains certain. The ease of seeing beyond what past thinking determined as true, and the vivid portrayal of a Reality that simply needs revealing, through some effort, willingness, and a leap of faith that God and His Angels await our declaration. The window in mind now open, the pathway clear, The Thoughts of God well apparent, and then the decision to effectively be what is of wholeness, goodness, and Creative Effect, in the world.

Those who reach this level of joining with Mind we call God's Angels come to Earth from the Divine, and those they touch, we state, have received a miracle from Heaven's Gate.

Jeanette

one who walks

The Idea of the Body

2005-10-05T07:26:00.000-04:00

An Idea is a Thought of God, an eternal Truth, which manifests itself in physical form. Although the form changes from time to time based soley upon our personal decision and choice, the Idea remains as Truth.

A concept is a separated thought, or belief system, reconciled by a single individual along his pathway in time. Concepts manifest themselves, as well. There is no thought which remains apart from physical reality, yet, metaphysical information teaches we either choose to manifest in Love, or for the gratification of our egotistical notions, and erroneous choice.

And so the body. The Idea of the Body is God's, the Source for all inspirational Thought, and Goodness of heart and mind. Yet, the concept of the body, the decision for its use, is held by whoever or whatever determines to formulate a way of presentation in any given moment in space and time.

Students of spirituality, regardless of chosen teacher and guide(s), tend to seek the learning, as A Course in Miracles would state: "I am not a body," yet oftentimes exclude from mind this isn't a directive the body should be denied. In fact, within the contents of this specific instruction Jesus teaches doing so is a particularly unworthy form of self-deprecation.

The Idea of The Body was Created by God in order for the souls of His Creation to be able to flourish, and embark on their journeys. It affords a way for recognition, one to another, and also for celebration with other souls who would choose a thoughtful driven encounter.

The perfection of the body is often spoken in spiritual circles. "I can order my body to health," is spoken frequently, yet the miracles are often lacking. This is because of a fault in thought whereby the body is actually seen in need of healing, instead of the mind.

(Although most interestingly, yoga teaches a pathway of training the body to affect the mind, and is highly regarded by Masters of Creative Effect throughout time.)

Once the body is seen as the end result of a thought of mind, and wisdom assists in the translation of concept into understanding, the form of the body, even within a certain given lifetime, can be changed at will. And so it Is.

So the body is a costume, if you will. A contemporary design used for communication purpose. The soul determines a pathway, the body is made for self- and interpersonal exploration.

Yet, the body also changes. Upon "death" the body is shed, a new one is made, and even between lives conscious recognition of our loved ones and traveling companions continues. Reincarnation states we even choose another body in order to proceed through the gateway of traveling the same planes of residence; however, within another form made for specific personal decision of exploration.

If anything, the body is proof of everlasting community and residence in a Universe that is endless.

And what is the eternal body? The eternal body is the Idea of the Body, a Thought of Universal Law and Spiritual Truth, and God gives to us the creative potential to utilize this unchanging Truth in order to maximize our Creative Effect and Joy. The former is changeless, the latter is an extension of its ability to serve in our lives. The former clearly demonstrated in the resurrection; the latter by Enlightened hosts.

Overall, the choice can be made to become frustrated with the body, or simply recognize the body is one exactly made for our dynamic experience in whatever time and space we have chosen to interdimensionally travel for whatever reasons we have determined will suit us best.

Jeanette

one who walks

Messages

2005-09-11T11:40:00.000-04:00

Messages, it seems, are placed in my world by the Holy Spirit, loved ones passed on, the Angels, my Guides, and even by my own subconscious (which the Course says induces miracles).

When I think about going about my day, I am never alone, just as the Course says. The Holy Spirit is there, as rightmindedness, capable of directing my mind to where, what, and who, would be most helpful to me, along with a heavenly host of beings, who have also been Created, and choose to assist me.

Sometimes these messages simply arrive in my mind, suddenly, unexpected, and with a synchronicity that focuses all my attention. And other times they appear as signposts along my way.

These signposts might be something vividly stated in a movie, as if the statement were placed there as specific confirmation for me, or a statement by a friend is made seemingly so directed.

Or sometimes they are noted in a casual way along my day, signs here and there, in repetitive manner, telling me, "Yes!!, this is your answer, follow this Thought and it will lead the way."

Nature often speaks to me directly. Breathing fresh air fills me with Spirit. Birds song is a reminder of one long ago forgotten. Flowers and Colors of Creation unlimited. The sky, stars, and planets, clouds, and sunshine, as well, remind me of life everlasting. And embracement of Love, in metaphysical wonder, a reminder that unity has to do with Being a part of something for which awe is deserved, yet retaining my ability to think, and co-Create.

Not to mention my dreams, whereby messages are clearly delivered, and when I rise, I remember in detail what has been told to me.

Although I know the common feeling and interpretation of: "We are never alone," and "There are no private thoughts," is taken to mean God in reference to ourselves, yet, there is no doubt in my world, I never walk alone, and I am surrounded by loved ones in a way which directs and comforts me.

God sends his messengers, as people I have known, or friends and loved ones in the Moment, or statements in my world, in order that I may receive the message over and over again, until I truly hear.

Experience is a teacher, no doubt; however, nearly all that I do can be directed, if I am willing to follow, by the everyday signs, symbols, and reassuring messages, given to me, as I go about my day.

Even my thinking is affected in this manner. I might have some metaphysical concept in mind, which clearly is transformed to an Idea, once I allow my Universe to speak to me in harmonic convergence.

All the pieces of any given puzzle are readily placed together when I reach towards where the Holy Spirit directs me in order to be reminded I am never alone in my search, and indeed, new pathways are often forged in the same way. The Answers to my questions are always readily available.

Gifts are given to me within the same Cause.

I remember sitting in a staff meeting at work a few weeks ago. The manager mentioned if anyone was willing to completely change their schedule. I almost fell off my chair. Here I was thinking that it would be more conducive for me to become a day worker, and end my evenings. I was also thinking 12 hour shifts, this winter, were going to be more intense than last, and wondering what plans I should make in regards to this, this year. And there, suddenly, I was given my answer, an opportunity which I took immediately. God sent, and quite inspired.

So there seems to be two kinds of messages in my life. One which speaks of affirmation, or even change of mind, of what I have been thinking. And repetitively I am given the directive. Another is simply a gift, a suddenly package, which resolves a problem.

God is in my World, as a powerful Cause, known as Love, manifested in ways in order to assist and comfort me, and those who He sends deserve my attention. The messages are interwoven in my life in miraculous ways, and inexplicably intertwined in a manner which is certain.

Jeanette

The reason for the hurricane

2005-09-06T12:07:00.000-04:00

Here are a few actual commentaries offered by friends and co-workers as to the "why" of the hurricane:

1) It is God's way for population control

2) It is a wake-up call for those who need to review their lives, and change their way of thinking and living

3) It is another signal, another disaster, as to the coming end of the world

4) It's wind and water brought together by natural forces, and nothing we can do really, except to cope with it all

It's all interesting. And I find these are the people who actually offer more true empathy, and are sending money and assistance, than the "spiritual" individuals who state it isn't real, and so find chanting "It isn't real, it isn't real," to be the effective form of extending love and healing on the planet.

I find the hurricane was made by mass consciousness choice on a level of certain Reality, whereby minds and souls meet to determine what causative effect is needed to accelerate the awakening on the planet. It is very *real,* yet our perception, as onlookers, to the causes and effects are illusional. Our past belief systems, and categorized reasons for experience, cloud our thinking to the matter of why Earth changes are occurring. Metaphysics says we together make choices feeling what we do is of sound reason. Jesus says we can choose to make warm rains and rainbows, instead.

The natural experience is real, the rain, the winds, the tides, the people. What is illusionary is our thought systems, based upon erroneous information, and what the Course suggests is we open our minds to true causative effects, and begin to understand how dynamic change is actually done in the world.

Spiritual platitudes just don't reach the level of intensive thinking Jesus suggests we open our minds and hearts toward. Jesus says thought is powerful, manifests itself, and we should take more consideration as to what we are thinking and why.

We have a choice to create and/or miscreate. Both outcomes are real. Although experience is temporary, the energy which is used to create and/or make continues to affect our minds, matter, and therefore, nature.

I really don't have a strong hold on what mankind is thinking about at any given moment. For this I am sure: There are more pleasant ways to learn and grow together than to continue to make disasters, and unpleasantness, thinking we must learn through pain and anguish.

There are many falsities on the planet: One is "no pain, no gain." And another is a misguided appreciation for trials and tribulations. Neither are needed for learning, mind training, purification, or spiritual progression. As humanity continues in agreement as to these erroneous conclusions, they will continue to bring the same upon themselves.

It's time humanity decided there are genuinely more efficient ways in which to experience together, which in Reality we are most certainly telling; however, this comprehension is yet to fully be realized by man.

Jeanette

one who walks

an exploration of Goodness

2005-08-30T09:44:00.000-04:00

I find it is true that if time and energy is used to unravel what is seemingly impossible to untangle, and then even moreso difficult to communicate, let alone, convince someone else your perspective holds honor, nothing is achieved accept for continuous thought at a specific level.

An exploration of Goodness, I feel, in my own life, is what has juxtapositioned my thinking, for the most part, allowing my thoughts to soar, my mind to expand, increasing my happiness, and allowing me resolution of the why of human experience.

When I think of Jesus, during the time he lived, people truly had faith if they touched his cloak they would be healed, if his eyes met theirs, they would sorrow no more, and if he approached them illness and death was shown the door.

And what these followers of this great man did, was simply explore Goodness, and have faith in what it can restore.

If my focus today, right now, is on the crickets song, the lovely blue sky, and the quiet rhythm of my fan, the knowing my heart is at complete rest and peace, and the hearing of an occasional bird's song, this does more for me than interpolative response to my world.

At work, a saving grace for me in the ER is simply to make an effort to actually enjoy space and time with a patient. To know this person as a Source of Love, and commonality in my life, and that there are no chance encounters. I savor the Moment.

Questions, I feel, about life should be asked. But, for me, I ask them in contemplative times with the Holy Spirit. I am convinced once the question is well formulated, it is because the answer has already been given. No question arrives in my mind, whereby the answer hasn't been specifically made available, as a clear thought in my mind. Thus, the whole purpose of the question itself.

Denial is a refusal to listen to the answer.

There is no need to grope around in the dark, no need to simply wait for the Holy Spirit's Voice, no need to simply float around in existence, instead a decision to be an effectual being in regards to an exploration of Goodness has outcomes, which not only transform a life to Life, yet, has the potential to blanket the world with Love's response.

Living isn't for the non-thinking mind, and a life not examined isn't worth living. Yet, it's the kind of thinking in my mind I find of value, which is making the difference. There are levels of thought, as stated by the Course, and also Master Thinkers. Staying in one place in regards to thought, attitude, and response, serves absolutely no good purpose. Jesus asks me to go beyond what meager thinking would have me do, and have some faith the Holy Spirit, as Guide, will always be present in my decision.

And it all begins with a decision to view what has worked, is working, and honestly appraising the outcomes in my life. If what I am doing today isn't causing my thinking to expand my mind in ways once thought not humanly possible, I need to rethink with whom I am associating, how I am spending my time, and what choices I am making, for it is these which are the determinators, as to whether I am exploring Goodness, or simply wasting time.

Goodness leads the way to an intelligence of a sort, which has nothing to do with being well-read, but an intelligence spoken in the Book of Record, and heralded by Jesus, as the way to personal Atonement, and perhaps even more. Creativity arises from this intelligence, and the way I am finding this is through a decision for concerted effort with Goodness. I don't demand perfection of myself; I have made a decision for walking in the right direction, however.

Functioning in the world yet not of it, for me, is about focusing on this exploration, and then, all the rest of my life comes to mind in perfect perspective, all in good order, and everything easily accomplished.

Jeanette

one who walks

A personal testimony of self-empowerment

2005-08-25T13:11:00.000-04:00

Several years ago I was completely burnt out at work, and then broke my ankle. My world was beating me down, I thought, and I didn't like the experience. What my world was telling me was change was in good order, and it was time I stopped working, sat a spell, and focused on an ankle. I made a transition in my life from frustration to a completely different sort of visionary outlook, based upon the foundation of talents I held inside. Further, I began to understand the meaning of "walking through a portal," even as I could hardly walk at all at the time.

I decided to take a job in the ER. I had great foundational skills having served in ICU/CCU, took care of heart transplant patients, and more. Yet, I wasn't a pediatric nurse, and my skills in orthopedics were definitely rusty.

Yet, nothing ventured, nothing gained. And when my ankle began to heal, I was just so happy I could walk on my own two feet again, I was ready for the change.

I studied, I learned. I wanted to be the best I could.

Yet, I found the ER frustrating, the relationships hazy, the crazyness well apparent, and I didn't know what to do. So I battled inside for a while. Unfortunately, during that time was when I made the serious mistake of a relationship whereby my love partner found doing battle, and grievous thinking, finding the world was terribly wrong and needed correction, a mainstay in his life, and so, the "battle-syndrome" seemed to generalize everywhere into my life. My own projected thinking was drawing towards me exactly what I asked for.

After that fiasco, I did some thinking. And I had some loving friends and family, who were listening. Much Gratitude there.

I began to think of my life in the ER as being where I should be. After all I was placed there for good reason and sense, as I had been asking for a complete change in my nursing career. But the middle of the ER, I thought? And all these confrontational relationships? What??? "I want to work in a frame shop," I thought, and "get out of this altogether."

I then began to think in terms that my role in the ER was about *me.* I was to use this experience in close introspective experience, and ask questions, constantly, of Jesus, as he directed me to right-mindedness.

Every confrontational relationship I had I began to think, "What is this For?" What about *me* is this telling? What outcome do I seek? What past thinking is this relationship bringing to Light?" And so it began from there, an honest, clear, and steadfast, daily, if not hourly, decision to truly understand my own personal spiritual evolution, and what I needed to learn.

It worked. Some of the answers were simple. As in: "If no one wants to accept your report after 12 hours, continue to work." Seems easy enough, yet, initially, my ego wanted to get out on time, for fear of being tired the next day with all my then consuming tasks (that all changed, too).

What I found in this daily, ongoing practice, whereby I switched my thinking from being a doormat, a kick me sign, to being of service to myself, ultimately resulted in better service to everyone else, and my world began to reflect back to me a level of respect I didn't expect in return. Oh, I thought I'd become more satisfied, but recognition for my decision? Well, I hadn't considered that.

I received several large raises, which nearly tripled my income. I actually began to see the light in the eyes of those who I found were "unfair" and "injust," and found myself developing friendships. And I found great self-fulfillment in my work, due to the fact I broke the boundaries in my mind, crawled out of that box, as to the response I was giving on the job in regards to my limited definition of what I would and would not tolerate. On receiving direction from Jesus, towards the thoughts of right-mindedness, my on the job working experience changed dramatically. And I asked *nothing* of anyone else. This was all about my own personal, working, interpersonal peer relationships, and decision for more intensive forgiveness in regards to patients and their familys.

The first year wasn't easy. I considered it "sacrifice," but actually I was sacrificing nothing, yet gaining everything. I stayed out of the drama, yet offered utmost respect to those who found games and manipulation heralded their way of thinking. I didn't confirm what they were doing, but I didn't allow it to interfere in the work of service I was performing, and I got off this feeling that I should have meal breaks, get out on time, and blah, blah, blah. I gave it to God, and am still healthy and alive.

I let all my standards of a decent working relationship with my employer go. I let all my preconceived notions as to what my co-workers were about go. I let all my past thinking as to what nursing was about go.

And what occurred, was a peace in my heart, which replaced all egotistical wish for personal on the job "victory," and a willingness and Strength from somewhere else from something else to Do more. To effectively be what I wanted to be, a damned good ER nurse.

I don't tolerate abuse. However, I also don't get involved with the dramas, which are the feed for abuse. I take my work seriously, and am studying for my national certification. And I have a lot of joy and happiness, laughter and fun, at work. I also get tired sometimes, and am working on ways in which to increase my energy, and potential, to accept Strength from God.

I needed to shine. I needed to polish all the foundational tools I had for the tasks assigned. I needed to be a more willing individual. I needed to allow my talents to flow, unobstructed by the dramas, and attention seekers, on stage in the ER. I needed to allow feeling and emotion to rule my way, in contrast to logical and intellectual thinking, which simply got in the way. These were the fundamentals of my transition. And they were all about *me.*

Last week I was offered, out of the blue, a position in the ER, which pleases me. My hours will change. No more late night work. And I will continue to do what I do, yet, within me, I know I have grown. I have made good friendships with the people I felt were indignant to me, and I have earned their respect.

The generalization Now, as opposed to the past "battle-syndrome," which I attracted quite acutely, is Love. Living in the Now, I learned, wasn't about denying the past, it was about accepting all that I said and did, and being desirous of transformation. It did matter what my past was, because only on this recognition, could my present change. And I needed Jesus in that corrective process, and I found he was there for me. The transmutation of the present doesn't occur, unless I am willing to look upon the past, and bring it to Light for the process Jesus clearly teaches.

I love my work now, every minute. So much so I work a lot of overtime. And my source of Joy is oftentimes with those who I once found to be contrary to what I felt was of human decency.

Last night, I had a patient who was a near code. When I declared, "Get the code cart!" several of my peers appeared. I saw the group work, I saw the unified presence, I saw the family in grief, wondering what they had done "wrong." And I saw the Vision of a group of beings wanting to allow Goodness to be expressed, and my patient survived, woke up, and opened her eyes.

Later, I made the decision to be a Teacher of God, and this has had the same outcomes in my personal life, as did my response in my working environment. And I am going to continue in this direction. David Fishman is using my work on my blog for teaching purposes with his following. Now that's a confirmation I find most pleasing, and validates I am walking a pathway of more meaningful life experience. I find validation effectual for one another, as we make choices, and look upon our world for signposts along the way. And there is nothing like an affirmative response from someone I respect that challenges me to do more, and better. And I will.

Life I have found isn't about living under a rock. Humility isn't about denying yourSelf. Humbleness isn't about pretending to be 'quietly spiritual', because happiness and Joy leading to elation is seen as something less than worthy. Authenticity isn't about wanting to intervene in the world; it is about a courageous willingness for change within. And strength has little to do with what the ego can muster; it is about a direct relationship with God.

Overall, It was all about *me.* And I found I work with a group of people, who given the opportunity to see what I am capable, now consider me a worthy, and well respected, member of the team. Upcoming, one of the doctors is joining us in having some fun. Amazing, no, miraculous.

Jeanette

one who walks

The intelligence of the meek

2005-08-22T10:53:00.000-04:00

The intelligence of the meek is noted by the thoughts they aspire, which clearly differs from the intellectual pursuit of a mind that seeks to find answers in materials that redundantly makes promises, but never truly delivers. Words are commonly used to attempt to heal a division between what is divine and ordinary; however, never quite makes the goal so set, and often times makes the chasm even wider. Heaven waits quite patiently, as the meek feel their way from imprisonment to freedom by spending time with a Voice, which is extraordinary and wise.

The wind in their inner sails is the breath from God transpired only upon their decision. They know the flow of Love, they feel it in every inspiration, and release its overwhelming exuberance in all they do and say. Their vessel becomes so full of God's wishes; they offer their gifts to lessen the burden. Take my riches, take my finery, seems to be the voice of the meek, as they can no longer burden themselves with temporary measures of stalemated happiness. They create in order to make a channel for Love, and their truthful creations are well noted for the story they tell, passed from person to person, village to village, they resound with metaphor of God's Good Graces.

They tarry not over lessons, or intellectual quest, yet see God in The World, as created by Him, inclusive of bird's song, the Sun, and the Moon.

They feel as a part of God, yet as individual as a snowflake in winter, a drop in the ocean, a grain of sand on the shore, and a flower in the garden. They know of their creation, and how Universal Love sent them to their destination. They are never alone or wanting, for God goes with them wherever they go, and they are embraced by His Declarations.

Their passion is due to their flame within, which gains momentum from every choice and decision, lighting their pathway, as their abundance in love is freely given in every step they take, through forgiveness of what was, to acceptance of what is. They know their direction. Their passion welcomes relationships, and recognizes the truth of their brother's existence. They enjoy the touch, the voice, and the comforts, of human interaction. Any fear they encounter is laid aside to make room for Understanding.

As the Sun shines upon them with their Thoughts aligned with His, their world no longer remains a mystery, as they know the Kingdom within. They understand the world they made, and the happiness upon its achievement. They realize God's World reflected in co-creation. Nothing apart from, yet everything equally loved, and potentially as able as God's Son teaches. They have little desire for making temples or castles on Earth, yet hold firm to the Thought their true residence and work resides in the eyes of those who would seek to follow their vertical steps towards a higher order of thinking, and awareness of what eyes on God can Do.

No common intellectual study can bring them to the place they hold in their hearts and mind, yet only a choice to fully realize their influence and power, as prayer becomes the medium for the Source of a message so potent it brings the meek in full willingness to their knees.

On doing so, the Book of Life is given to them, the Wisdom of the ages, and the potential of all knowing in the Now. Freedom becomes their daily existence, regardless of experience. They have left the study, yet have become an adjunct to its celebration. Their mind serves as recipient, their heart as gateway, and their body as means, while they simply demonstrate to the world the endlessness of possibility.

The intelligence of the meek, having forgiven common thought away, and entered a place of total surrender, where the question is answered "Who Am I?" simply continues on its way. Nothing is needed in the life of the meek, except a new day, and a decision for Love, which effortlessly sends its message to a mind so prepared the veil has been lifted away. Every answer is given, but even moreso what is truly of value accepted, the stranger no longer walks in a strange place, but finds himself at the door to Heaven. Only God can take the meek for the final step, until that time, they simply enjoy what time is for, a celebration of Life and acceptance of His Vision.

Jeanette

one who walks